annalea09

You see imperfection, I see individuality; You see what you don't understand, I see that which was not meant to be understood; You look into her eyes and see centuries of nothing, I look into her eyes and see centuries of everything; You say she's destined for death, I say she's destined for immortality; You say she walks alone......I say your right; She could walk through a room of people and still be alone, for everyone is empty compared to her fullness; She is here for a reason, watch and learn from her Please leave comments........

She lies in bed, still awake from the night Holding the blade and imagining the blood stained shirt that lay on the floor The voices were to much She could not handle them as they prey on her weak mind They have driven her to this.... To forever lay awake staring at the blade, wondering why....or why not She looks back at the scars and remembers what each stands for; what pain each brought She is ready to make another scare and another story Why can't she just let go? Why did she have to hold on for so long.....? So long now, that the memories are incrypted, To lay dorment until reawaked every night A different night, the same story

Do you ever shut up? Will your voice always be there? In my mind pushing all my memories forward from their hidding place; The hidding place that that was so well hidden and still holds my bad memories and untold secrets that I wish to forget. To never recall and remember the times of my demise. The times that I wished to cease to exist from this hateful world; Will you ever leave me be; just let me live my life even if I am not free; I deny your help and run away, I will leave this place but you shall stay; To linger on and help those in need, for I am not in need, so go away.

Sitting and waiting When will he come for me? Will he ever set me free? Free from this world of pain and hate as it throws out curse after curse always targeted at the weak For the weak that cannot withstand the evil that preys on their weaknesses, With our strength depleating with each passing day, As we wait and wait to finally leave these evil days.

You stand away, So very far away, Alawys alone in the dark shadows of your mind, To linger on with only you, To never open up and explore these mornings filled with the sparkle of dew, The sparkle of dew that rest on the ground, always stepped on without just one look down, Never to look down and see how beautiful dew can really be, That shall be the haunting life forever of you and me

Images and Reputations What do they really mean? Is there no difference or does it go deeper than can be seen? Through out the day we focus on it, though through out the night we sit and ponder of everything but our divine image. During the day our veinness shows through our mask, who we really are can not be denied and we await to be told our next task, The task to be done, it soon shall be, Who we are and what we can be, Each of us have one, a reputation, you and me, But can it really be seen from the outside? Who we are is different than what we can be.

You think you know me from that one year we spent together But now I've changed You really have no idea I am a different person, Some one you cannot see through with just one look Changed by the hatred and anger that so many now seem to have Now you see a different person, a person other than me with dark thoughs and no reason to try I am the only one here that lives in this reality This reality that so many see but deny and retreat to a dream world that has nothing to do with me or you and whats insde is only theirs to see When this reality is for you and me and for everyone to be waht they will For to live in alone in your o

In my dreams you still linger To forever be but only a dream A short and sweet dream that comes every night Though I am concious the whole time, I still believe you are in my mind And in my mind you shall stay For to loose this dream would be a nightmare And I will keep it forever at bay For at bay you shall stay, I will never make you real For the price of loosing you is to high to pay For your heart is made of steal, Yet in my mind you still play I will never make you real, For in my dreams you shall stay (Please leave comments)

Look at me, Do you really see Look into my eyes and tell me what they read Are they soft and gentle and full of love Or are they hard and cold and full of hate? Only I can see waht's in these eyes And if that's they the way that it should stay Then maybe that it just wasn't meant to be FOr if you cannot see Then you you and me will never be Never be two eyes that see one picture through and through Never be conjoined at the heart To forever stay alone we shall be One without the other Only you and only me We shall never be

Fear is what fuels our anger, our hate, and our rage Some keep it hidden until it is time to let all that's hidden explode Others make it clear in their everyday lives The words that violently spill out as they soil our toungues and spoil our lips come from all the rage that we keep inside Some say what you see is what you get, Though that is not nessicerily(sp*) true, you may only get the outside, for some are unwilling to share whats on the inside..........

Sometimes… I used to have an epiphany Where my eyelids turn inside out And I view the world with fresh eyes, Looking into the mirror and wondering: "What is that? It's pale and gaunt and hollow, And it seems to be suffering. Not even a 'thing', And too imperfect to be a 'one' Corrupted, twisting Impure, disgusting A disgrace— A torture." And they said I was on a crash course with hell… Screaming. …I couldn't do it anymore. Remember those times? Yeah…those times. Those times were great… Too bad they never last. Why won't they last? Because we're not strong enough To hold onto them And live our lives Happily. Because wh

Natures beauty causing hell Nothing, not even a warning bell She blew past taking their hope Taking souls and leaving them to mope The lost of children and a once happy life She cut through them like a knife Fast and quick but leaving pain Blood on the ground forever stained In their homes they had sat alone The pain of loss, in their eyes had shown Even days after they sit and wait To finally hear their return date.

Dear unforgotten past, I've written a thousand letters Telling you things that I could never say... The anger, hurt, and sorrow That will never go away. Never sent them though I thought you wouldn't care Just how much damage you did; The constant pain I couldn't share... Sometimes I look at my wrists Just to see your face Retrace the scars with my fingertips, And relive the pain time can't earase... The scars I have are from both of us I hurt on the inside and out. Im still not sure what hurts the most But at least I'm not living in doubt. I never got to tell you how I felt after that day So for the longest time you could on

filled with hope enthusiastic obsession our voices complement through a serene connection I found a way to make you smile pretending to be someone else I really missed your smile more than I missed myself filled with lethargy monotonous altercations our voices overthrow through a split connection now you keep it inside where you can't feel a thing silence suits us fine when we're not listening filled with fear computerized rejections our voices disappear through a bad connection

Who will be there when I break down and cry? I cry alone at night with the wind blowing on my face. I have these thoughts that no one could ever erase. Time passes and the bad thoughts won't go away. They take my tears and somehow make me pay. I'm afraid to be alone. I'm confused and I don't know what to do. Help me understand. Help me understand. Who will be there to tell me when not to lie? I wear a mask to hide my fears from all of you. My smile is a lie that I believe is overdue. Day after day, the smiles aren't real, But you are the one that never let me heal. I'm afraid to be alone. I'm confused and I don't know what to d